It only gets harder the more that you know.
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
For the first time in my life I got so drunk I puked. And although the feeling was really horrible beyond the capacity of any words put together can describe it. I felt warmth and comfort like I never had for a long time. Thank you for taking care of me although I know it must have been hard on you for cleaning my mess on your expensive shirt and holding my weight whenever I try to walk straight but end up in circles.
Sometimes it just feels very nice to have someone to take care of you.
It feels good to have someone being so proud of you.
And ___, I admit I was in the wrong for being angry although I was in fault cos I was late. But I'm really angry because sometimes I just cant take the way you doubt me. I was not lying that day and I felt really pissed off when I explained and you didnt believe me.
You get angry because I dont tell you things. But sometimes its just hard to do it because when I do so you get pissed at me as well. Whats wrong with me seeking companionship? I have never ever neglect you because of my relationship before. Okay except maybe for YM's case BUT what the fuck when you were with him you didnt make time for us as well. In fact we were so distant and I know you knew it.
Its not as if if I ever get into a relationship you will be less important. For me its doesnt work like this and it never will. If you dont give a shit or dont believe whatever I've said then I've got nothing more to say. I've said my piece.
10:48 AM