It only gets harder the more that you know.
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
is it my laptop thats having technical problems or is it that MSN is down? i cant sign in. ive been trying fruitlessly for the past, say, 45 mins? it cant be my laptop right? now that my com freezes every two seconds im using it, nothing bad should happen to my laptop. wow. i think my life is actually built on my cyberlife. i cant imagine life without my com. no wonder i feel like im living in a virtual world half the time.
after reading *****'s blog, im utterly glad and relieved my mind dont work like that. to think i thought im someone who reads too much out of nothing. she sure can conjure more eccentric thoughts than me. im not that mad after all. (: okay, i feel like im mocking at her, i should not be. but im just terribly relieved.
so, chem was a mess. when was it ever not. i could not finish the mcqs. this paper one must have been the toughest one i've came across so far. i will be jumping with joy if i score any grade higher than 20 marks. on the good side, chinese AO was good. it was a nice surprise that pulled my spirits up a little after it was seriously dampened by chem. the picture of mr bala laughing at me when i said i will be happy if i score a ten for mcq is strongly etched in my head.
dad just told me in the afternoon grandpa has decided not to undergo dialysis anymore while he was in a conscious state. i could tell dad was angry, but it seemed that his anger stemmed from the fact he cant do anything about grandpa's decision. to watch someone you love having his life sapped away as days pass is definitely not going to be easy.
to think i thought having my mind filled with materialistic issues was warped. now im glad my mind is filled with that and not..........
american's next top model tonight! cant believe nicole actually won! she dont deserve it. imma try to do maths after the show till the wee hours since there's no paper tmr. (((((: i'll TRY. i shall go suck up to my mum in the meantime before the show starts so she wont start nagging when i go out for the weekend. hahaha.
so you take the smiles, from all of our years, and i'll take the tears,
eileen
5:08 AM