It only gets harder the more that you know.
Monday, February 20, 2006
i am so frick-king pissed with my gp. i took 4 hrs to read through all that articles and notes and to finish one essay OUTLINE, yeah not even an essay. so i dont have time to study anymore cause i am so tired alr. shitf**k. i forgot to bring my tie today and i have no idea why the co-op isnt open! so i skipped assembly and attempted fa in cls to no avail.
x-country tmr. leisure walk for me. its a rubbish day tmr cus we have sch! until 1. and the shittier thing? bio all the way. bio tut, bio lect, bio prac. okay now that ct's so near im really getting the jitters. i dont feel like going to school tmr so i can study late today and study the whole day tmr as well. ah, this is very tempting.
cant wait to turn 18. hopefully its a TURNING point, turn for the better of course. i cant believe my mother actually asked me if i want a cake. like hello? since when did she ever buy me a cake. and yet she came up with the excuse of me wanting to celebrate birthdays recent yrs with my friends. OKAY, maybe its true but still its the heart that counts. i dont even get proper family gifts anymore.
grandpa's undergoing dialysis. the cardio specialist told dad that his heart has stabilised and they got to take the risk otherwise it will be as good as wasting his life away as he lie there with the oxygen tube. god bless.
this is getting bad. as i blog i am thinking of wha sam told me in the afternoon about her birthday party after ct. i shall indulge myself sinfully after ct's over. rockerfella's gonna be real good cause...... aiya i just know its gonna be good, THOUGH it will be better if sam's in it. i really shouldnt be talking like im studying damn bloody hard for my ct, you know with all the i can enjoy myself after next week, cause im really not. oh no. -reality is setting in.
when everything is meant to be broken, i just want you to know who i am,
eileen
7:26 AM