It only gets harder the more that you know.
Saturday, January 28, 2006
somehow, the more i try not to think abt you, the more you appear in my mind. im so tired of trying to block out the images that i just gave up and let myself indulge in everything that has happened. the smell of your cologne doesnt help. it only makes me miss you more.
im trying to persuade my mind into believing that this will all pass and in time i will see that these memories will bring me joy, instead of sorrows. im waiting for you to tell me to stop waiting. tell me everything thats in your mind. then i can leave with a peace of mind. then i wont carry hopes of ever getting together again.
eileen
10:23 PM