It only gets harder the more that you know.
Monday, September 05, 2005
borrowed two books from marcus today. man and wife and chinese cinderella. hopefully they are good read. i need alot more than two novels to keep my mind off things. been caught up in a whirlwind of endless troubles, headaches. if all goes well, i will be able to divert all the hard thinking on my revision instead. better late than never, i think its just a line for losers like me to comfort themselves.
isnt it strange that this is my own space yet i have to type cautiously, constantly beware of all the eyes behind the screens reading wha is written right here. well i think its high time to take a step out of this gripping fear. try not to care about who reads wha i type and so wha i type here is my own banana business.
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wohs. that was good finger exercise. i have more to say actually. like how my life is perfectly fine now but it feels like a dump. i do not have the slightest idea why i think this way, when nothing particularly bad has happened. and the next moment it can feel good and relaxed. i would like to think its because of the nearing promos. but it seems to be more than that. i just cant quite put the spot on it. its like making alot of things out of nothing at all. how scary is that.
you know candies are supposed to taste good. like eyecandies are supposed to "taste" good. BUT you also know, candies are bad for health. SO CUT DOWN ON IT NOW.
feel the heat of the battle within,
eileen
10:05 PM