It only gets harder the more that you know.
Monday, August 29, 2005
wha do i do when the yearning gets so strong. why is it you feel so close yet so far? its so close i know i could reach it if i reach out, only to realise im looking at it through a pane of glass. why is it i could hear your silent words. why is it i laugh at your silent jokes. why does it have to be so hard.
how do i get rid of your face in my head. why is it everytime i think a little harder about you the tears start to fall. why is it i feel like i've known you for all my life only to discover i dont know you at all. why do i allow myself to be pushed about like that. its making me feel sick in my head, in my throat, in my heart.
who could ever understand, falling helplessly with a stranger. who would wanna know everything about a stranger. who could understand the feeling of watching yourself fall and each pull you hold back pushes you into it even more?
wtf is going on,
eileen.
9:44 PM