It only gets harder the more that you know.
Monday, July 11, 2005
i cant quite clearly apprehend the way to a man's heart. is there any paper proof that man has a poorer memory than woman? because if that is not so, tell me why they can manage to forget relationships in a flash? my heart goes all out for you. i may have hated you sometimes for not trusting me, i've never thought i've forgiven you but when you had to go through this, my heart truly aches for you.
i know its tough. its meaningless no matter how much inspirational quotes i can come out with to comfort you. its pointless asking you forget everything and move on. cus i know you know everything that im going to say. you just cant do it. i know how the world means nothing to you now. i know how much you cry each night until you are so tired that you fall asleep. i know how the pictures flash through your minds each and every moment, and how your heart ache with the motion. i know how watching him continue his life as though nothing had happen hurt you even more. there you are in pain, there he is, feeling free. i know how you feel like you are going to die from this much pain and how you feel like a huge part of you has been removed.
it hurts me more to see you hurting so much yet knowing there's nothing i can do to make you better. i cant do anything now but to assure you, all this will pass. just hang on and it will fade. it may take a long time, but eventually the pain will go. i frequent crowded places to fill that emptiness, maybe it'll help. i engage myself actively with whatever i can get my hands on, to push everything out of my mind.
this may seem a little out of date but you know, you cant make a rainbow without the rain.
always here,
eileen*
10:18 PM