prelims are like less than 2 mths away and that's rrly not very far away yes, but im slacking away everyday when i reached home, i just slacked around and when i want to get my work done, im alr feeling real sleepy. in sch when i see everybody i rrly wanna start my revision like right away, but when im alone at home, there's no motivation. im procrastinating, i know, we'll just hope that i see sense soon yaa? and i mean soon.

i wonder if staying back after sch for ssps are gd or bad? some would complain that when they reached home, they would be completely shagged out and have no energy left for revision yada yada. but i guess ssps are gd for ppl like me, though i complain abt it alot too.

im in my crazy mood lately, like you know i have those kinds of reflections-before-you-die moments, lotsa them, not that im going to die anyway, just that i began reflecting on my life and myself. i began to realise wha a complain whiny queen i was, you know ppl like that gets on my nerves and i cant believe im turning into someone like that. i feel that time is rushing by me, i looked at all those arnd me and i started having scenes of how i would do real badly for my exams cus everyone's working hard but me. then i'll let all that loves me down and ppl who passed me by would just snigger and whisper abt me. i shuddered at these thoughts of mine, i know how much i dont want that to happen, but its like my mind is telling me wha to do and my body wont listen, i feel helpless.

i dont want any of my thoughts to happen, but is it too late? its not that i dont want to start, its just that i dont know where and how to start.