i love my friends, yes i really do, but somehow i want a new life. i want to start all over again. cus ive made mistakes and hurt people around me, and i wanna start all over again, i really really do. you ache inside, all alone, who really understands how you feel? you try confiding in them, but the content that flows outta your mouth seems childish and insignificant, tell me how? i dont know how.

sometimes i really envy you, you have friends that love you so much, they might not understand wha you are going through but they try their very best and are always there for you. im not trying to say my friends dont treat me this way, but i dont think i deserve it yes.

there are times when you really hate yourself, and it feels like these situations are multiplying. its not that i want to leave my friends, but i want things to start all over again, cus i feel the relationship going downhill, and i want to erase everything and start all over again. but i cant, can i?